Remember to Come Alive

“Memory was a curse, yes, he thought, but it was also the greatest gift. Because if you lost memory you lost everything.”  

― Anne Rice, Blood And Gold

~Remember to Come Alive~


Remember, for the time will come when the world will forget.
Remember what you are worth.
The highs and the lows shape who we are.
Remember you are worth more than this world wants you to know.
Remember because time is short.

Remember the love that shines on us.
Remember what makes us come alive.
The fire that burns, the water that cleanses.
Remember you are worth more than they are telling you. 
Remember because love is worth more than all the pleasures of this world.

Remember the hurt, remember the pain, for it makes us stronger.
Remember the good and the joy, for it gives all hope.
We are one with the love that shows no bound. 
We are one with a world that needs to be anchored on the other side. 
We are one with blood, sweat, and tears.

The future is running parallel with the past.
The future is running side by side with the present.
For I know life is short, and life makes death worth having.
Death is worth having when you have the hope of the one true love.
Remember, for the time will come when the world will forget.
Remember, because life is short.
Remember to come alive.

A Kid at Heart

“When we are children we seldom think of the future. This innocence leaves us free to enjoy ourselves as few adults can. The day we fret about the future is the day we leave our childhood behind.” ― Patrick Rothfuss, The Name of the Wind

~A Kid at Heart~

A kid at heart.

A child of God. 

The innocence that brings forth God's understanding. 

A kid at heart. 

A child of the one true light.

Showing the child the way of righteousness.

Showing the child the way our God says to live. 

A kid at heart raising a child in an image made by my father. 

A child of the one true light.

This little child is a gift from God. 

This little child is the metaphor of a relationship.

A relationship built on innocence and humbleness.

This little child is the eye in which miracles can be had. 

A child of the one true light.

A kid at heart.

A mature adult with a child nature. 

The world through the eyes of a child, 

Means a world where all is possible. 

A child of the one true light.

Be real, be like God, be like a child.

Be mature, be like God, shine a light, be like an innocent child.

A kid at heart. 

A kid that knows love, a love that only a child can show. 

A child of the one true light.

A child's love.

So perfect, so pure.

Love that has no bounds, 

A love that is unconditional, a love that never dies. 

A child of the one true light.

A kid at heart.

A kid of innocence.

A kid of righteousness.

A kid of unconditional love. 

A kid of the one true light.

~The Fall Apart Doctrine~

"A crust eaten in peace is better than a banquet partaken in anxiety."                               ~Aesop

~The Fall Apart Doctrine~

Sometimes I feel like the pressures of this world are more than I can bear. 

My anxiousness takes over and I fall victim to the delights of this land. 

God says do not worry.

How can I not when this place is full of strife?

The sting of death will die one day. 

The sting of death will become a memory. 

Even my anxiousness will dissipate.

Even my doubt's will be washed away.

Sometimes I feel the stress rise up in my chest and it is hard to bear. 

My imperfection shines through and I am not the Fathers child in my mind. 

God says do not worry. 

My God, it is so hard not to worry.

Oh, entropy

Oh, the fall apart doctrine.  

This world will pass. 

This world will not last.

The sting of death will die one day.

The sting of death will become a memory. 

The existential will be gone.

The unbeliever will look up and see where they could have been.

Oh, entropy.

Oh, the fall apart doctrine.

This world is on its way to fire. 

To be reborn like a phoenix from the ashes.

Sometimes I feel the pressures of this world.

I am anxious, I am stressed.

But I have a promise where I do not need to be. 

I have a God worthy of my praise.

The anxiousness can be gone. 

The stress can be forced out. 

This world will pass. 

This world will be reborn.

Oh, social entropy.

The fall apart doctrine of humanity.

My Life Still Lives On

"I do not exist, only you exist."
                                     ~mewithoutYou

 For you are all children of light, children of the day. We are not of the night or of the darkness.
                                      ~1 Thessalonians 5:5

~My Life Still Lives On~

I deserve nothing.

I deserve nothing but the death that I am born with. 

I do not deserve the gifts and the mercy I am shown every day.

I am a child of the light.

I am a child that casts a shadow. 

I do not deserve the light on my life, but for some reason it is upon me.

I deserve death. 

I deserve Hell. 

But I have a God who looks at me and takes my death away.

I am a child of mercy.

I am child that hurts more than myself. 

I do not deserve the mercy in my life, but for some reason it is upon me.

In moments like these when I seem to have clarity, I weep.

I weep for the goodness

I weep for the pain. 

I weep for I do not know why He would save me, all because of faith.

As the day passes by and the clarity begins to fade

I sing the songs I always knew.

I sing, "God, my God, I do not deserve you.

I do not deserve your love

But I thank you, for you have won my life.

So I thank you, even though I do not deserve you."

I deserve nothing. 

You deserve everything. 

I close my eyes and pray my prayers

For my life still lives on.

So I Was Thinking...

So I Was Thinking...
So I was thinking about today and it seemed a lot like yesterday.
I thought about all the times in my life where I was willing to die.
I reflected and sat, and then took a long nap.
And I dreamed with my eyes shut and had visions I had never seen.

I saw beauty in everything and and colors were brighter than ever before.
A technicolor, hd, 4k display that made my world seem like 1930s black and white TV.
In the middle of the room was a prism displaying the colors I saw before me.
On the other side I saw the light shine bright and it pointed to a mirror.
I moved towards it to look and see.
And at the end of the dream I finally approached the mirror. and saw no reflection of me.

So I was thinking about tomorrow and how it will probably be a lot like today.
I thought about all the times in my life where I was willing to live.
I reflected and sat, and then took a short nap.
And then I dreamed a shorter kind of dream.

I saw a light in the distance that looked like a star.
A pinpoint in a place filled to the brim of black and nothing.
In the middle of the light was a dot and this dot had a color I could not see.
I heard a voice that said walk.
And I walked even though I was blind besides for what was before me.
And at the end of the dream I approached the light and saw that in the middle was a mirror and I saw a reflection of me.

So I was thinking about a a few days from now and how I hope it is not like today.
I thought about all the times I wondered if I would live or die.
I reflected and sat, and decided not to fall asleep.
And then I walked and thought that maybe today will be its own unique kind of day.