A Crack in the Foundation

"Sooner or later you'll find out there's a hole in the wall. Sooner or later you'll find out that you'll dream to be that small." ~ Switchfoot

~ A Crack in the Foundation ~

In the past there is a suspicious space between the wall and the door.

A crack that appears to be broken, more so than it should.

Splintering and weaving, creating more lines than healing.

This space is all you had left before you hit the floor.

Under the blood shot eyes of lovers dreams.

Through the dark places of family screams.

Into the depths of friendships in toil. 

There lies a hope, that could fix this scene.

Ripping and tearing and become more than what it once was.

An increase of space in between the lines.

What is more sad than a foundation beginning to die?

What is more sad than hope that feels so far away?

Together and alone.

Crowds of people yet morose.

Hands falling on hands.

And lips being used to kiss and betray.

Our lives are but one tale.

All woven and created.

A canvas being created for more than this life.

And in the cracks there is a way to repair what has been lost.

Do not overthrow your lover.

Do not seek out hate against your brother.

Do not try and one up the other.

For love is what will bind, not this scalpel coming down.

Stitch it up and forgive to get better.

Love more than self to show you can love one another.

For the bloodshot eyes need not apply.

When it comes to those who are on or have crossed your eye.

Let your present be more than that of your past.

Do not be defined by what you did but by what you do.

Hello sweet melodies of love and daring.

Goodbye to the curse that parries all of your caring.

Tomorrow Gets Me Through the Past

"They left us alone, the kids in the dark to burn out forever, or light up a spark. We come together state of the art. We'll never surrender, the kids in the dark. So let the world sing, 'What a shame beautiful scars on critical veins. 'Come together state of the art. We'll never surrender. "

                                                                                                                                                   ~ All Time Low

~ Tomorrow Gets Me Through the Past ~

Tomorrow equals new experiences.

Tomorrow    IS the narrow versus the Broad.

Tomorrow   IS a choice That reinvents Itself as the events Get Closer.

Tomorrow   IS Always in the Now, so Get up and Dance.

A smile filling my eyes as I learn to discover rather than cower.

A moment of jubilee when I find out that change is not as bad as it seems.

More of this and that.

And less of that and this.

For tomorrow  IS the Day That starts yesterday.  

Finding out that fear is no longer part of my arsenal.
That time when it is okay to wander and not find anything at all.

Tomorrow   IS Never Alone and today IS filled with Sparks.

A smile filling my face as I learn to drive and not let go.

A smile that tells me that running away is not the answer.

A moment of jubilee when I realize that letting go is just another part of the day.

For letting go is a double edged sword used for the good and for the tarnished.

Tomorrow   Divides into three.

The past, present, and the future.

All rolled into one caring moment where the choice is made.

As I run and not let myself equal the impossible.

Even though I miss and I mourn.

Even as I am filled with sadness that I will not get to see them.

I know they are safe.

I know that life takes a strange path to find an answer that was always there.

Here I go weeping for joy.

Here I go dancing this day into the next.

Here I go taking in feeling and using it for good.

Here I Go looking for tomorrow  Which IS just like looking for today.  

Tomorrow  equals new experiences.

Tomorrow   IS the path less Traveled and more Traveled by others.

Tomorrow   IS missing the ones I hold Dearest.

But for now I tell you I love you.

I love you more than you know.

But we know, that we are never not together.

Because tomorrow  IS where the memories and the Present collide to form the new and exciting.  

Tomorrow  IS a lways in the Past and the Now.

So get up and dance to the new.

Dance to the present, and the past.

So get up and dance to the undecided.

Because we all know that the meaning will be with us and reveal itself when our eyes stop looking.  

But please do not stop looking at the same stars.
Or even the same sun and moon.
For even if the sun is a star.
It is the one that will truly guide me home. 

Absolute

"We want the truth, give us the absolute. We need your help, 'cause we've got nothing left to lose. I know we've tried this thing a million times, but put me out 'cause I'm on fire."

                                                                                                                     ~Thousand Foot Krutch

                Absolute

We are to live accordance to an absolute.
An absolute defined by commandments.
An absolute created out of love.
We will live and obey, the absolute defined by my Savior.

There is a forest that grows at an alarming pace.
Weeds, thorns,and vines.
This is the forest known as life.
A place where all our troubles grow and grow.

Yet we have a hope that one day we can make it through.
To walk free and make it to the forest's edge.
The edge to the other side.
An absolute in accordance to truth, hope, and love.

We need to obey Love not men.
We must obey faith in the truth, rather than a speculation made from mortals mouths.
To hold onto the one we killed.
To accept the plan that is chosen everyday.

Running into truths.
Running from truths.
Retreating from the dance.
No, let's retreat into the hands who created the song and the dance.

To be new and believe. 

To cast aside doubt.
To let the pain fuel our Hope.
To let Love in and to stick to the absolute.

The absolute that the world does not accept.
For the world does not like being told what to do.
They must do it.
They must be the ones to tread these lands.

I choose to be more than what this world has told me to be.
I choose to have a guiding hand.
I choose to trust in Love's
I choose to obey in the One who gave it all.

absolute.

Never Give Up

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail."

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Never Give Up

The world is not on your side.
It wants you to fail.  

The world is against you.
It wants you to fall.  

This place throws rocks at you when you try and do what you were meant to do.
You can be beaten and scarred.
The ship that never makes it to shore.
The plane the doesn't find land. 

Downtrodden and beaten down.
Unable to sleep.
Unable to have a descent meal.
Broken,  hurt,  and seeing visions of wood and blood. 

The next section is one of a man who is down.
A man who is trying not to give up.
One who is searching for it.
For what? For truth. 

Where are you God when nothing is going right?
Where are you when the fire licks up.
When the earth splits open and swallows me.
And I fall not seeing where the bottom is.  

God what happens when I point a gun at your head?
What happens when I turn it on myself?
When nothing seems to be going right,
And the world looks sweeter than you? 

You tell me that you love me.
And that love is sufficient. 
I wonder what would happen if I truly let you in?
If I listened and responded instead of hearing and ignoring?

I have this to tell you sir...
Never give up.
Fight for God
Fight for your right to choose love instead of hate. 

The world will not win when this life ends. 

Pain makes you stronger.
The hurt is used to strengthen the resolve of Love.
Suffering is what it takes to fight and to win. 

Never give up on life. 

Endure and create your character.
When you are at the end of your rope,
Get your eyes off of this world and put your eyes on God. 

For this world is doing you no favors. 

Never give up.
Hope can come from the pain.
Hope is what comes from suffering, and that pain brings love as you endure and reap what is sown.

 

Never give up. 

Let Love win.
Never give up.
Fight for your right to never back down. 

Is it Safer to do Nothing at All?

"What if my dreams do not happen? Would I just change what I've told my friends? I don't want to know who I would be, when I wake from a dreamer's dream."                                                                                        ~Twenty-One Pilots

~Is it Safer to do Nothing at All?~

Dreams are meant to be broken and reborn again. 

To be slept on and woken up into.

A gauge of how much you mean to yourself.

An undeniable drive to see what you are are striving for.

For dreams are made by what you want.

The desires of a heart beyond my own.

I choose my fate every time I wake.

I cry out and wonder where is the direction I seek.

Sometimes Love has us wait.

We must be patient and realize it is not in our time.

We may choose fate, but time does not let us choose a side.

It carries on until the game is done. 

What happens if I do not reach what I am reaching for?

Does that mean that my dream was not true?

Is this the death of a dream?

Is it time for it to become new?

Dreams are meant to be broken and reborn again. 

To be made out of sand.

Once the heat rises and the mix is in place,

The sand turns to glass and we hope it does not shatter in our face.

Is it safer to do nothing at all?

Is it safer to just sit in my room?

When this world wants to fall down.

That is when I think I should get up and move.

Sometimes Love has us wait.

Sometimes Love says to run.

Run towards what was placed inside our heart.

And even if we fail we need to get up and run again.

For in everything we learn.

We learn when we fail and when we succeed.

As long as we try and learn how to bleed.

For dreams are meant to be broken and reborn again.

Is it Okay to be This Small?

~Is it Okay to be This Small?~

I am a blip in the existence of the universe.

I am small even on Earth.

Yet, you love me.

Yet, you listen.

I lay on my back and look at the stars.

I see the beauty and majesty.

A galaxy that could be out to get me.

A galaxy filled with people I love.

Don't forget Love will find you.

It seeks you out and asks to be let in.

It comes to you even in this world so big.

Even in our mistakes and demons.

The cosmos spinning and dancing.

The dance of the heavens.

Spinning around and around.

Like a woman dancing on her wedding day.

I sow and wear the fig leaves to hide from Love.

I run to be lost even when I want to be found.

In this universe so large.

In this heart I wish I could save.

Love died to be alive again.

To save what I can't save.

In this town where I am so small.

In my room where I feel smaller.

When you love somebody let them know.

When you depart for a long trip don't hesitate to call.

You may be miles away, but we can be connected by love.

Believing that this universe is smaller than we think. 

If I feel small, why do I look at the stars?

If the universe is so large, why do I search for it?

Because my faith is more than this world.

My faith is in Love that saved me. 

I am a blip in the existence of the universe.

I am small even on Earth.

Yet, you listen.

Yet, you love me.

The World's gods Before Me

Almost every time we tell a lie it is fear based.
                                     ~Jeremy Rapp

~The World's gods Before Me~

Who among us deserves life everlasting?

How many of us do enough good to become a sinless answer?

Can we be perfect, so that out lives can mean something?

Who among us deserves to be forgiven?

I deserve to be blind for three days.

I deserve to be blinded for longer.

I deserve to be crucified once.

I deserve to be crucified twice.

Who among us has the answers?

How many men have come up with a sinful answer?

Can we enter into the gates with someone else?

Who among us deserves gold and a helping hand?

I deserve to be shipwrecked.

I deserve to drown in the fears of men.

I deserve to go hungry.

I deserve for God to not get me through. 

The Maker puts us into situations that are hard.

The Master puts us into places that are unclean.

He has us destroy the semblance of a comfort zone.

Before we go out into our days.

Is it not amazing He speaks to is at all?

Is it not incredible that He guides us?

He puts into these situations yet He stays near.

I don't even deserve that.

There is a way for me to enter into the gate.

And it is not living in the middle gray.

It is to cast aside all of my firsts.

And replace it with God first.

  

Do I take the gifts given to me and use them for Love?

Or do I take them and spit in the face of the one who blessed me?

Do I put anything above the Maker?

Or do I rely on Love more than anything else?

Who among us deserves eternal life?

Well no one really. 

Who among us deserves to be forgiven?

Not a single man or woman.

But you know what?

Faith in our creator can give us eternity.

Listening to the call will forgive us.

His grace is enough to set his people free. 

I don't deserve anything.

I don't deserve to be living. 

But I have breath because I believe.

And I will continue to live if I can cast aside this world's gods for the one who made me. 

Understanding a Foundation

"When all the love in the world is right here among us and hatred too, and so we must choose what our hands will do. Where there is pain let there be grace. Where there is suffering bring serenity. For those afraid, help them be brave. Where there is misery bring expectancy, and surely we can change something."

                                                                              ~David Crowder

~Understanding a Foundation~

What if we gained, gripped, and grasped all this world offered us,
Would we get what we were looking for?
What if we fornicated, got drunk, and had a heck of a time,
Would we fill the hole that is inside of us?

Could I build a solid foundation on a rock?
What if I did then tried to continue the building by my own rules?
Would not my house still fall?
Would I not be crushed under the storm?

There are cracks in my foundation.
I am a messed up individual.
I am scared to pray when I wish to hide from answers.
Yet I still believe in Love. 

But belief is only one step.
What about the relationship?
What does Love ask us to do?
What is the next step in the plans laid out before the back of my head?

A small voice can speak a mountain.
A small voice can repair a broken home.
A small voice can sound loud.
In the nothing, something can shine through.

What is it in your life that is driving you away from truth?
Is it a sin you are too ashamed to bring to the forefront?
That sin can be washed into the ocean.
It can be judged and forgiven.

Love is beyond our understanding.
It is unfathomable.
Yet, He is more personable than a mother with her newborn child. 
He is more than enough for the sinner, the liar, the downtrodden, and the lost.

If I gained this world I would be let down.
I can not do this on my own.
What choice will you choose?
Love or Death?

I choose the joy I experience from God.
I choose the hardships of living in a fallen world.
I choose the eternal.
I choose the muck and the mud I must wade to get there. 

This is not about me.
It is not about my own insecurities.
It is about Love.
It is about what He did to deliver you and me.

We should have bled.
We should have died.
The cross should of bared us.
But I have a God who took it all for me to be free. 

Time to Look Up

~Time to Look Up~

A Kingdom has and will come down.
White and dipped in blood it will come.
Healing that goes deeper than whatever came before.
With music that calls the dead and awakens them through the mouth of a King.

For the invisible Kingdom is here with us now.
But there is another on its way.
A physical one for all to see.
What do we do while we wait?

We wait and use the sky to see the Lord.
We wait and Love all who wander on our paths.
We wait and Love those who do not wander in our way.
We wait and live lives on purpose, in urgency, for love, as we pray.

Fear is not from Love.
So cast is aside and look into the sky.
We will know when it happens.
We will know the glory of the stars.

The world must die before it can be saved.
My life died before I lived.
I live for an end, not the beginning of me.
For the end is the new beginning for those who believe.

Because of this we need urgency.
We need to show Love.
We need Grace and Mercy.
The King of the stars died, so I could die and break clean.

Something is not right here.
Something is not adding up.
The place where we live has something missing.
The place where we live thinks forward thinking is equality.

They would rather have pleasure than hear the Word of the Stars.
They would rather feel good than feel what real love is.
They would rather live in false hope than have a rock under their feet.
I would rather have euphoria with my King.

Did you see it?
Did you see the love?
Did you see the blood poured out?
Did you see the eminence of a world where we belong?

Was your eyes open,
Or did you close them because you would rather love flesh than eternity?
Was your eyes open,
Or did you not look up and see the wonder of signs sent into our sea?

People look up and ignore it.
People look down and plant seeds in the weeds.
People hear a warning and look the other way.
Only to believe when they see the rain and run to an Ark when it it too late.

Do not worry about your things.
Do not look back and become nothing.
For your fleshly goods will pass away.
But your soul will live on in one place or another.

If you have everything this world has to offer and do not have a soul,then your life is nothing.
I would rather love and know the Maker then get off with endless women, men and money.
For when the physical Kingdom comes,
I won't be dashed away.

A Sense of Urgency

"Saved people this side of Heaven owe the gospel to lost people this side of Hell."

                                                                             ~David Platt

~A Sense of Urgency~

What is inside of our souls?
The eyes of the world are opened or closed to the souls populating the streets.
The kingdom is inside for those that trust in the One.
And it will remain inside until the return of the Son.

We as a kingdom stand so still.
We have the glory yet we do not tell.
We have no sense of urgency,
When forever is beginning now.

Conviction is in us all.
The kingdom rings inside of souls.
Conviction is love.
And we must delve closer to the truth.

Home is the place that we must strive for.
A home of a kingdom coming down.
This world that is in me needs to be projected inside to the outside.
And not kept as a secret for none to find out.

I have ran for many years just to find,
That what I was looking for was inside.
The power of a savior that can make a mountain bow.
The power of His Love to help go out and tell.

I strive for peace and I want that peace on Earth.
It will come one day if you are ready,
But not all will stay.
Many will perish and never see the light of day.

Wolves will be with lambs.
And tigers will let me near.
The threat of an effect will not come.
For peace on Earth begins when you let in the Son.

Children will play in the streets and have no fear.
Fear will be taken out of the picture.
The mystery of a man who loves so much.
Even when his people hurt him everyday. 

True love was out poured freely by a death.
The suffering that was out poured was a gift.
Our own suffering integrates gifts into actions.
And pain creates strength to go out and become what we were meant to be.

Our greatest is our greatest.
And that comes from a wooden death.
A wooden death that created our salvation.
And yet, so many of us sit and refuse to have any sense of urgency to share. 

We dance and we sing in acknowledgment.
Acknowledgement to the love, grace, and punishment laid out for us.
Laid out for us by the Creator of the world.
And that gift is what makes life worth it. 

Forever can and should start now.
My eyes should be open, even when the truth burns them.
For truth is what I have to share.
And truth should not be bottled up for the few.
It needs to be shown and told to those that do not understand what hope truly is. 

Do Not Shy Away

~Do Not Shy Away~

Who is my maker?

Who can satisfy my soul?

Who can answer my call?

What brings true love? 

What makes me sing?

What takes my fear today?

Do not shy away from questions.

Do not stop your speech.

Let your voice be heard over and over again.

I am learning how to be saved. 

I am learning about love.

I am learning to never let go of dreams.

I want to take into account loss.

The pain targeted at my spirit and flesh.

I want to take into account One.

And the One who helps me learn to use pain to break clean.

Only One has arms that continue to be wide open.

The maker is the One who makes the blind see.

I run into Him when I have no way.

I run to His arms when things are going right.

By my hands I cannot save.

Only the beginning and the end can.

By my hands I cannot heal.

Only the Maker can take back death.

Right next to me He stands.

Right next to you He is there.

Our Savior became like us.

To get holes in His hands that can be shown to Thomas's like you and me.

How happy are we?

How joyous can we be?

To dance a dance.

To sing a song to sing.

Who is my maker?

What other questions can be asked?

Who was born to us as us?

My Maker is Love.

My Maker is the One.

The One who guides me on land and sea.

My Creator has no equal.

He is my light that let's me be free. 

Right in Front of Me

~Right in Front of Me~

If I was a man, would I be rich? 

If I was a man, would I be poor? 

If I had a place to be after this world where would I be? 

Heaven or Hell?

I see scars on wrists. 

I see holes in feet. 

I feel more than blood running down my arm. 

I feel more than sweat beeding on my neck.

Can I have a drop of water? 

Can I latch onto my wife and go to the gates? 

Can I use her as a surrogate to enter the Kingdom?

I thought I was good, I thought that was enough.

That man over there he was a murderer, I understand him. 

That lady on my right raped a boy I understand that. 

That one to my left stole cheated lied and died. 

I understand that.

Please, let me in. 

I worked towards a goal. 

I treated them with respect. 

Yet, here I am burning, dying and not dying.

In denial and loving it does not receive.  

When the truth is right in front of you and you deny. 

Attempting to justify sin by calling it shaming. 

Attempting to justify sin by saying that it is the social norm.

It is easy to be good and then die in sin. 

It is easy to run to people's beds and end up not understanding what went wrong. 

Not one of us is worthy. 

But those that accept the ancient teaching understand more.

If I was a man, would it be okay to rape and murder? 

If I was a man,  would it be okay to see if I have blood in my wrists? 

If I was a man,  would it be okay if I lived to be good and to always get my way? 

If I was a man, couldn't I listen and receive that truth that was always right in front of me?

Love Despite Faults

"I found a love in me, I always somehow knew that it existed.

 It just needed to be set free."

                                                 ~Relient K

~Love Despite Faults~

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What does it mean to live for the world?

It means nothing, nothing at all.

Do we put God above everything else?

Or does the world look better than an end of light and song?

It is my job to be a stone tablet to the world.

I am here to bring salt to the bland.

To be more for God and less for me.

And to be a desire for good and not evil.

As this world grows towards a place absent from truth,

The true believers will be brought out.

Standing for good,

Standing and singing, proclaiming, and dying.

What does He want from us?

He wants us to love Him,

Love Him with all that is in us.

He wants us to listen to him even in the bustle and in the quiet. 

It is not my job to condemn the lost.

I am here to love despite peoples faults.

I am to love like Christ loves

Because I am not perfect either. 

Where do You Suffer?

"You're my harbor in this lonely storm."
                                             ~Jon Foreman

Where do You Suffer?

Rejoice in the suffering brought to you by those who do not understand.

Suffer and become strong.

But do not suffer by doing wrong,

Suffer in the pain of Christ.

What am I doing when I see those who are dying?

What am I doing when they are in danger?

Do I shut up in my home and never leave?

Or do I go out to where they are and show them love?

I am stubborn I am a faker.

I long for a home that I cannot see.

I am boat lost at sea.

And everyday you see right through me.

I refuse blessings when He lays them right in front of my eyes.

I end up suffering not by Him, but because of me.

The hurt builds up like a chemical reaction in a bottle.

Until it explodes and my heart is on the floor.

The time will come when this world will be reborn.

My maker will come down and all will see the truth.

Until that day I will be all I can for Him.

I will be all I can to show the world His love.

For true love can only come through God.

True love can only be embraced by understanding His suffering.

Even when I doubt, He does not abandon.

Even when I suffer by my own accord He brings me back.

When darkness is over your eyes,

And the stabs of this world pierce your skin.

When the eyes look and linger just a little too much,

And then your world falls apart.

Remember there is a hope if you just turn to the Maker of all things.

3 A.M. Comes to Fast

"Jesus, Jesus, there's something about your name. 
Master, savior, Jesus... 
I've been dirtier than you wanna know.
I've left earlier than you'll ever know. Jesus, Jesus."
                                                 ~The Almost

"Part of a season dream I have created"

3 A.M. Comes to Fast

I feel dirty, messed up, and alone.

Part of a seasonal dream I have created. 

An artificial feeling determined by mislead dreams.

An awakening in my soul that is tempered by smoke and rust. 

I feel dirty, messed up, and alone.

Living in a world determined by status and blood.

Looking out for the ones that I find most endearing.

These people who are my friends by a random number generator or because I share blood.

I feel dirty, messed up, and alone.

Knowing one day that I am going to die.

And nobody can stop this fact.

Am I ready for the inevitable?

I feel dirty, messed up, and alone.

My candle flickers in the light, and forgets to shine in the dark.

My city on the hill has fallen down tonight.

It has left the foundation behind with the fountain still inside.

I feel dirty, messed up, and alone.

Looking out for my own.

Looking out for me and my home.

I feel dirty messed up and alone.

There is a conclusion in here somewhere.

There is an ending to behold.

There is a moment to distinguish this shadow and return to flame.

Until then the conclusion must write itself.

Without my influence.

Without my doubts and fears.

To be separate from my creepy crawling skin.

To realize that maybe my soul can be washed clean. 

I am parting ways just to die alone.

Because I do not realize I do not need to walk far to be atoned.

I must admit to the bad choices I have made.

And go on and remember why I stayed.

I feel dirty, messed up, and alone.

I am looking for a conclusion to the distinguished questions.

I am learning what it means to be alive.

I am trying to remember why I deserve love.

I am looking for a conclusion to why I cannot sleep tonight.

For 3 A.M. comes to fast. 

Embrace and Divide

Let's set this city ablaze
We'll burn down the monuments
And build mountains in our place
We could see everything
We could start a fire
And all shine in it's light
Shine so bright we burn in eyes
And heal the stories ending
                                                ~Further Seems Forever

~Embrace and Divide~

Let's burn this city to the ground.

Lets light a fire in the souls of everyone around us. 

Dancing and singing causing both comfort and division.  

Let's let the light of life shine from you.

Will everyone accept what we are showing? 

Are we free from persecution?  

No,  fire consumes and purifies. 

Fire cleans and causes soot.

When you learn the truth, easy is never going to be in your vocabulary.  

We must set a fire and show people that their lives will be more then dandelions.  

It is going to be a rose,  thorn and all.  

It is going to be a rose,  blood and beauty.

Even in all of the pain, 

Even in all the troubles and tribulations, 

Remember we have a hope that others do not. 

We have a love and a promise that transcends human understanding. 

Our lives deserve to be a sweet melody. 

A melody for ourselves and for God. 

At times it is a fast song, 

And other times a slow one.

With all of our songs,  

And all of our styles and genres. 

They have all been made to glorify 

And to save. 

Grace is a fire that takes away our sins. 

Our obedience is key to keeping up with the song given to us.

Love is a thread that connects both pain and peace. 

Love is what keeps us secure in the understanding of what it means to be alive. 

This city is on fire. 

Let's light up another. 

This city is on fire. 

Let's love another.

Goodbye easy, you will not be missed. 

Goodbye smooth sailing, I want to grow. 

Goodbye and hello. 

Goodbye and let me know the truth of a war that is already won.